I woke up this morning, and realized I had been hibernating for years. I have not experienced life because I have been afraid. I fucked so many things up that I thought it'd be best to lock myself away, in doing so I became a monster. I have tried to repress all of the nightmares, daydreams, and insomnia, but now I feel rested. I realize it takes more courage to confront your demons than it does to embrace them.

I am now going to kill everything that made it so easy to kill. This is suicide for the sake of life. I will no longer try to be someone I am not, nor will I cower from who I am becoming. I feel blind now, and it is the most captivating loss of sensation I have ever experienced. I have bottled pieces of eternity in heartbreak and now I am getting drunk on reconstruction. I am going to try to find the hope I lost a lifetime ago.

The past is the past and I will not fall into its bear traps.

I encourage everyone to love like you've never lost, to breathe every breath like you are suffocating on thin air. Stare into the sun. You may lose your vision, but it will be worth the insight.

God bless you all.